So, the European markets start to tumble, and The McPalin's go to fear tactics because their strategists say they can't win on the economy. I'll tell you what, McPalins et al: right now, if you can't make a case for yourself on the economy, you need to go home.
Jeez. That campaign has been brainless all along. I almost wish I was running it for them, just so I wouldn't have to suffer through the pain of witnessing their lame-brained fallacious reifications.
Ya, I know, I've been gone a while. A lot has happened. Metal Ox is gone. Bon débarras & God bless him anyway. I'm through the worst of the actual grieving, which may have been accelerated by all the previous grieving in regards to him, and by the simple act of just actually taking the time to be in it while it was here. Anyhow, I don't feel like telling the story. Let's just say the old patterns returned and by the time he realized what he was doing he'd destroyed the trust he'd convinced me to revive back in the Winter of [Fragile] Epiphany. I'm sure none of you who know me and the history of this relationship are surprised. I was and I wasn't. Truly, I feel saddest for having watched him open up and then close back down again, because I think there really was that W[F]E, it really did happen, he really did think that he could sustain, live from the loving part of himself, but in the end his conditioning got the better of him, and he failed. It's heartbreaking. (Don't worry, I wasn't nearly so objective when the shattering hammer first came down.) And that's all I'm going to say about that.
Still on leave from work. Health is pretty much back to normal. I am finally feeling really energetic again, exercising every day, my normal self. Scared to death of sitting in that exhaust. But company has made no offer to fix anything. In fact, they are being as rude and intimidating as the law allows them to be. But, you know me. It may be possible to scare me or make me cry, for a minute. But real intimidation is another matter.
Doing some freelance writing and design, very happily. Would be much pleased to continue in this vein for as a while. If you see work, especially editing, I'm your girl.
A couple of other interesting moves and developments. One might even say exciting. More later on these matters when the time is right.
In the mean time, pay attention. Things are afoot in the world. Remember: the only shelter is in Truth.
